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Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Military Diet - aka 3day diet

Welp, here we go again. after being 200 lbs in the delivery room with my son i was able to lose weight naturally (breastfeeding did NOT help) through just kind of watching it but not really trying and i went to 161 lbs from March to October. in October i did the Advocare 24 day challenge and went to 153 lbs. i fluctuated 5-7 lbs up then back to 153 and by May i was back at 160 and after using my fitness pal I was able to get it to 147 lbs by my birthday June 20. i managed to stay there until October when we moved and i was eating out for an entire month and slid from salads to wraps to the ol dollar menu trying to save money....i am now back to 155. OMG ! so today , 11/12/14 i am beginning the 3 day military diet and here is what im going to do. i will do ONE blog and update it and then include the shopping list at the bottom of the page.

DAY 1: Breakfast:

one piece of whole wheat bread ( lost my toaster in the move)
2 tblsp of peanutbutter (smeared on the bread)
1 cup of folgers coffee
3 16 oz bottles of water from 8am-12pm

(**you're supposed to have a half of grapefruit but i dont like them so i looked at a substitute and the only thing to do is mix 1/2 teaspoon of baking soda in a glass of water becausethe acid in grapefruit can only be copied with baking soda....well i dropped my son off at daycare, ran in the house to grab breakfast only to find i apparently dont have baking soda so i wasnt able to do that and its freaking me out.**)

so after lunch i wll tell you what i did because its 11:36 and with 24 minutes before i can eat im really trying to remember it's only 72 hours with this restriction and food should not control me....anyways. ill keep posting until the three days are up and i will document my end weight here on Saturday morning! (cross yo fingaasss)


Lunch -
3 oz canned tuna on a slice of wheat bread

Dinner-
3.5 oz tilapia broiled in foil seasoned with cajun spice & black pepper

1 cup baby carrots
1 cup green beans warmed only seasoned with black pepper
1/2 a banana because i screwed up and thought it was that but it is supposed to be an APPLE*
instead of ice cream i opted for the 8 oz of apple juice.

WOKE UP ON DAY 2: **lost 2 lbs.
i was so excited and motivated to do my diet but while taking my son to his sitter's a juice leaked all over his bag and diapers so that took time to clean up and by the time i got home ( i work next door to my house) i didnt have time to make the breakfast so :

BREAKFAST DAY 2:
slice of whole wheat bread with 2 tblsp of peanut butter
(this better not screw me up)



Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Working Mom

When my son Mavrick turned 6 weeks old and i had to go to wotk i bawled my eyes out.  I couldn't bear to leave him and began thinking all mothers who left their children were horrible heartless people. After 2 weeks i slowly became adapted to the extra hour i needed to get myself, my two boxers, and my son ready for the day as well as make the drive PAST work to the sitters house and then go BACK to my job for 9 hours. It's now been 4 months since i have been working and I am very much normal and happy to go feel like I make a contribution to my family and also that i am still an individual. I am happy to follow my dreams and be myself while being a wife and mother. I may not be the best mom in the world, and i defintately have short comings as a wife but i am finally comfortable in my routine and my life.




Friday, March 8, 2013

blessed

i cannot believe i have been in Ohio now for over a year and so much has changed. SO MUCHHH. I moved in with Greg in July and a few weeks later we found out we were having a baby. After so much stress we found out August 16th that it was a viable pregnancy and i was watched closely for high risk. In november we found out it is a boy and we are naming him Mavrick Allen. I am being induced at 39 weeks on March 30, 2013 and i cannot wait to meet him. Greg proposed to me on Christmas Eve and then January 25th we moved to a 3 bedroom home in Kettering and everything is so perfect. I am so excited to be a mommy and to have an amazing summer being a mom with my sweet baby. Can you believe it? I was such a different person back in 2011 and everything has changed and I am so over the moon happy. Thankful for God's blessings and continuous mercy. I will try to blog more. I just was on here a lot to deal with emotions and i have been happy and content past year and few months so ive not needed to vent but I did want to write a positive blog :)

Saturday, February 4, 2012

i love you.

we said it. it was sooooo weird. Jan 10 G & i took the dogs out for a hike and to run them since they have been cooped up all winter. while we were walking i didnt talk for the 3 miles I just thought. I am so happy here at home, I have my family, and G, and I am happy. He is a mix of everything good I have found in so may different guys I have dated that hes perfect to me. He is overly clean (A+), He is a hottie yum yum (yay), he is patient and sweet and he takes care of me. Ive never wanted someone to completely take care of me but he certainly does. Anyways, i realized on my walk that i could see me with him forever and actually be happy an simple just having kids and living a calm normal life. So that feeling began to grow with my happiness, and then on his sisters birthday after a few drinks we went to sleep and when i woke up i asked him to wake up and look at me. he looked and i asked him if he understood what i was saying and would her remember it and he said yeah why whats up and i said, I love you. I just dont want to talk about it but I love you. and he said Ive been holding back telling you that for a while now and he held my head on his chest and rubbed my back until i fell asleep. it was so very sweet. i am very happy and i feel very secure in this relationship. he's a true Godsend.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

finding me

Eli will be a month old Friday. I cannot believe it! I have lived here now for 6 weeks. I have gone on 2 interviews and I have sent out more than 100 resumes. Every day I am applying for jobs. Its so hard. I fl ew here six weeks ago after selling my car, quitting my job, and leaving over 6 boxes of my personal belongings. I flew here with THREE suitcases and I am waiting for my income tax return to send for them. I have been on an emotional roller coaster because I am fighting being selfish. I miss my tan, nails, hair cuts, new clothes, my independence...however I am seriously a step away from being at a convent. I have NOTHING. I have the few clothes which are all sweats except for my two pairs of jeans that I wish I had brought more of. i have my room with a small dresser, tv, mirror, air mattress and a space heater. I have no money now and no paycheck. I am living off of the love and support of my family. They asked me to come and when I told them this would happen they said it was okay and thats what Ive done. I feel terrible. the bright spots are that I am so close to my sisters and mom that I am extremely happy to be home. I am with my nephews and niece. I have my boyfriend who has unconditional love for me and also goes to church. I am spiritually where I am supposed to be and nothing is better than peace of mind. Anything I get in my life from now on is solely by the grace of God and will be a testimony of Gods love and grace. I am so happy that this is where i am. the depression and anxiety are gone. I quit 17 days ago. i messed up and had 3 beers and felt bad and then saturday was Nickis birthday but i decide that I cant throw it all away, I just have to keep trying. I am far better off now than June when I slept with friend boys bestie just to piss him off. those days are behind me and I am beginning to be happy and find myself.

Thursday, January 19, 2012

new job needed=[

bleh. im so frustrated. i have been here now for 4 weeks and i do not have a job. i found one and was hired by the spa/salon manager of a country club. i went in for my first day and met the manager of the country club and he told my boss that she hired me without his consent...um. wtf. so im back to the grind. looking for a job. about to go to taco bell ha. saying prayers and sending resumes. gr.

Thursday, January 12, 2012

falling

i have a part of myself that is so attached to Limer. but hes given up=[ life with him would have been so amazing. i cannot go a day without missing him. i met Greg when i was 5 and he was 4. we lived across the street from each other until i turned 13 and moved away. so now im 28 and found him again and he is single. was in a relationship for 6 years, was engaged, and then he found God quit doing/dealing drugs and she didnt. they broke up in march 2011.we emailed & texted everyday. he came and picked me up from the airport and has spent every single day with me since I moved here except for the day before Eli was born. he visits my niece and nephews, my family loves him he loves my family. we go to church together. he's just a God send. today i finally said I would commit to him and only him and be his girlfriend. weird. i havent had a title on any relationship since my divorce. so weird. perhaps hes just another guy.....but until i find that out im going to be happy with my simple life.