live to love...

Sunday, November 28, 2010


I keep fluctuating 133-140. Tine for another round before christmas. Going to begin Dec 4th, lose whatever I lose. Live it up in New Years Eve in an amazingly sexy dress, and then if I'm feeling fleshy Jan 1 I will do it again. This divorce is helping pack on lbs because I'm eating ramen and grilled cheese daily. Stupid carbs. Grr.

Tuesday, November 23, 2010


October 28th was the day I decided to leave Derrick. I waited a week to seperate all of our finances, pack my things, get a place to stay, and come up with a plan. The easy part was leaving. the hard part was leaving a human being with feelings and watching his pain. I moved out Nov 7th and havn't looked back since. I am so much happier. I am me i am being myself and if people dont like it, fuck them. I have finally gotten my life back. i am in control. who knows there this life will take me.

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

the new day.

November seems to always be my month of change. 2002 was bootcamp. 2003 was Va Beach. 2004 was Texarkana TX, 2005 was Ohio, 2006 was when I became engaged, 2007 was when Derrick came home, 2008 was when Derrick was gone and I got my tattoo, 2009 was when I started my new job and moved into my new house, 2010. thats the day i found the strength for me to walk away.

Monday, November 1, 2010

things. things that kind of annoy me.

ahem. this is a list of things that irritate me a little on a normal day. if im late for an event or work, if im already having a bad day, they bug the "H" out of me to the point of thumping my fist repeatedly into the sterring wheel, yelling at people how to drive, or kicking the rocks in my back yard. so. enjoy. hope i am not alone with this lengthy list<3

: people who walk UPON me at the mall or walmart instead of going (AROUND). there is clearly, a huge aisle. get out. of. my. bubble.

:people who drive in the right hand lane who dont need to make a right hand turn. they are the ones who without fail will be the car in front of me at a redlight on the street where "I" need to friggin turn right. and they nervously look in their mirror at my blinker and feel like crap because NOW they realize they made a mistake that they cant fix

: going through the drive through and then going back IN because they screwed up your order. ugh.

:Being asked my telephone number/account number AFTER I already entered in using the keypad on my phone. I thought I was supposed enter that info to "better assist me".  stupids.

:The noise people make when they rub their fingers on balloons. i HATE that sound.

:Someone standing over my shoulder reading the computer screen.  serrrriously. happens all. the time. at my job. i just want to tell them, they have google too. once again, the bubble thing. get OUT.

:When something I've been into for a long time becomes popular.

:Cutesy intentional misspellings: � lite� � kwik� � �R � for are. yess. lets not degrade our intelligence

:People who no matter what relate to something you have done and try to "one up" you.

:When people continue to stare after they ask you a question, as if they need you to expand more on your answer.

:In mini golf when you miss the hole three times in a row less than a foot away

:When the tiolet paper roll is backwards.

When the cashier gives you the change with the coins on top of the bills and for a moment you look like a fool jamming a large wad of cash into your pocket or purse while the guy in line BEHIND you wants to stand in your place so he is slowly walking forcing you to walk and shove at the same time. IMPATIENT people. grr.

when someone calls me and i have to listen to them wrap up a previous (OBVIOUSLY more important) conversation with someone else before i get their undivided attention. even though. they called ME.

small list of things that bug me.