wind knocked out of me

i just felt like someone punched me in the stomach and i feel like i could puuuuke. pewwk. ew. ew. ew. i just started trying to calm my heart down and fat tears tolled down my cheeks covered in bronzer and blush. i now have white streaks on my face and smeared eyeliner and makeup. the bottle of jaegger is for real calling my name. i want to roll into a baby armadillo ball until my degree is here, i have paid my car off and i wake up in a wonderful life. not that mine is terrible. i just am so confused that it hits me since i dont deal with my feelings. damn fucking feelings.